Messed Up

What am I to do?
How am I to feel?
My body will soon collapse
I wish none of this was real

I'm so completely stressed
I need some time alone
Family is great sometimes
But I'm better on my own

Life is so complicated
Feelings are hard to handle
Soon I'll lose control
And my life will be a gamble

Tears will roll down my face
I wish they didn't do so
I feel the chaos in my bones
Just minutes before I explode now

Wish I felt your comfort now
I miss a friendly hug
A shoulder I could cry on now
Without feeling like a bug

My throat is sore now
Fighting the tears every second
I want to disappear now
But where would I go?

- ML -