The Dream...

This is so difficult. I dream about you ... and wake up to a completely different reality. But anyway, I remember the dream so well that it is as though it happened two seconds ago. I can still hear your voice talking to me. Tell me how good I am. How well the stories are. That you want me to write one on your site. A story about you. I remember your voice. It has made a deep impression in my mind, as it always does. Especially when you sing. But now I hear it always, talking to me gently and soft. I get frustrated by it. What I can not get, I yearn for even stronger. And I really yearn for a little hug. Some words. A smile. A gentle little touch on my cheek maybe. But to what advantage? So that I can go for months and dream about you even more? I do not want that ... What I don't have, I do not yearn for .... I hope. But it really is hard getting it out... getting you out... Cause it is as they say. Once inside your heart, it's a hell getting them out...

But I do not need to get you out of my heart. I have room for many in my heart. You have changed my look on life. I respect you. I respect your privacy. I respect your family. I look up to you, and are very grateful that you are who you are. Things you have said. Things you type in your songs. It has helped me to think of a better way of living, and to think more positively on life itself. To come closer to you, at shows and concerts, has also helped me cope with my fear much better. And I have seen kindness in your eyes. But I did also in his eyes, when I was little. So who can I really trust?

I will not compare you with him. For you are not him. And I do not believe that you are anything like him, in any way.
Why do I bother at all to write all this ...?
Just because of a stupid dream? I wish that I never dreamed that dream, even if it was good, and it made my day easier.
But I can not stop thinking about you now ...
And it hurts ...

- ML -

Korslaget :D:D:D

Det er nok INGEN tvil om hvem JEG heier på denne gangen ;-) HEIA ÅGE! Heia ÅÅÅÅÅGE! ÅLE ÅLE ÅLEEEEE! hahaha!

- ML -

Redsel

Jeg kunne mistet deg idag, min kjære, umistelige, herlige venn...
Du var så redd...
Så livende redd...
Men du var ikke alene om å være det...
Jeg var også redd...
Redd for at du skulle bli borte...
Redd for at du skulle bli skadet...
Redd for at du skulle forlate meg, og dra til den andre siden...
Men du ble ikke borte...
Du hadde en engel med deg idag, min kjære venn...
Og jeg er så utrolig takknemlig...
Det finnes ikke ord som kan beskrive min takknemlighet...
For jeg elsker deg...
Og jeg skal alltid passe på deg...
Min kjære, umistelige, herlige venn <3

Jeg Savner Deg

Jeg savner deg...
Den vennen jeg hadde...
Den jeg snakket med om alt...
Nå har du mange nye...

Jeg savner deg...
Alt det vi gjorde sammen...
De sprøe ting, de kreative...
Nå gjør du det med andre...

Jeg savner deg...
De gode øyeblikkene...
Øyeblikk hvor vi lo når ingen andre skjønte hvorfor...
Nå gjør du også det med dine nye venner...

Det er et tomrom jeg ikke kan forklare...
En så ung spire...
Et sånt gammelt tre...
Kan de allikevel vokse sammen?

Du lot mine brukne greiner vokse...
Du gav dem liv igjen...
Mine greiner som ikke hadde fått blomstre...
Du fikk dem til å vokse og gro...

Nå er du eldre...
Den unge spiren bare vokser og blir større...
Den er ikke lenger en liten spire...
Men en voksende stubbe...

Du starter din egen reise nå...
Dine egne erfaringer...
Med andre stubber...
Dine nye venner...

Mine greiner blir svarte...
Mine røtter blir tomme...
Mine blad blir gule og faller mot bakken...
Og min stamme vil gråte...
for den venn jeg har mistet...

Jeg savner deg...

Messed Up

What am I to do?
How am I to feel?
My body will soon collapse
I wish none of this was real

I'm so completely stressed
I need some time alone
Family is great sometimes
But I'm better on my own

Life is so complicated
Feelings are hard to handle
Soon I'll lose control
And my life will be a gamble

Tears will roll down my face
I wish they didn't do so
I feel the chaos in my bones
Just minutes before I explode now

Wish I felt your comfort now
I miss a friendly hug
A shoulder I could cry on now
Without feeling like a bug

My throat is sore now
Fighting the tears every second
I want to disappear now
But where would I go?

- ML -

My dog... or not...

Can't call you my dog...
cause you're not...
Can't rip you out of my heart...
cause I would fall apart...
Can't let you move away...
cause then I'd be alone...
Can't promise that you'll stay...
cause it ain't my decision to make...
Can't call you my dog...
But I sure wish I could...

I Love You <3

The Dark Hallway...

So lonely...
When time stands still...
When rain falls down...
When cold sets in...
When darkness falls...
When I walk alone...
In my dark hallway...

So lonely...
When a hug is far away...
When the rain is here to stay...
When everyone is looking down...
When the love is not around...
When the sun cannot shine...
In my dark hallway...

So lonely...
When stars are blinking on the sky...
When roses don't come out in bloom...
When I feel that this is doom...
When I am all alone...
In my empty dark...hallway...

- ML -

Bøøøøø!

NY blogg? JA! Vil jeg det egentlig? NEI! Hvorfor jeg plutselig gjorde det allikevel? NYSGJERRIGHET...

1 September skal jeg til tannlegen igjen... OG min plan etter det, er å besøke tattoo senteret i byen (det jeg har valgt meg ut, for det er jo mer enn et her) og bestille en time til tatovering...
FINALLY liksom ^^
Weee....

Nå natter jeg, før jeg dør her jeg sitter... Haha, ikke heeeeelt bokstavelig da...
God natt!